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For the past two years I have moved from being somebody I was proud of to this stranger who has broken every single rule on her rule book for you. They have been bent to the extremes; so much so, my life was crazily out of balance. I was insecure, always restless, on edge, very irrational, extremely short-tempered and exuberantly paranoid. I have moved from happy carefree girl to Ms Dysfunctional teddy.

We knew this wouldn’t work out a long time ago. But I can’t quite explain why even though after countless attempts to remind myself that I will never and did not want to let anybody string me along this way. I will still let the vicious cycle repear itself when the opportunity presented itself again.

I guess the heart does mindless things that one cannot solve using the most complex chemical equations or mathematical theories. Like you say- emotions take a man to great extremes. I have been being way too emotional.

If only we saw the holes at the bottom of the pail we are trying to fill from the very start. It will save us both alot of tears, pride, bruises, scars, broken promises, panadols and dignity. It’s sucha a shame that after two years, so much effort and so many countless attempts- the only way out is the bright green exit sign we saw right at the start of this merry go round.

Today, I am determined to disown everything I ever felt about you. Today, will be the last time I will ever allow myself to think about the days and times we spent together.

Well, Goodbye love.
I know you will be alot better off without me like I’ll be definitely be without you.